short post to update about my life

i should be busy like hell yet still blogging here.why?because i want to express my anger,dissatisfaction and frustration here.again due to the assignment !@#$%^&*(&%#@@$%@!!!! the purpose of a group assignment is to cooperate to complete an assignment.so,communication and toleration are very important.how can you just insist your opinion and never listen to others?i try to talk to you nicely but you beh song= = damn hate to see people show me their "colour of face" wth. i will bear it untik the due date of this assignment.it is really so difficult to be a middle man.i do so damn lots of things but please dont think that i am very free and keep on giving me more and more tasks to do.i will get mad.i also have my own things to do k?

skip......

gonna start my part time job as a tuition teacher next month.to be honest,i am soooooooooooooooo busy.so dont ask/date me out always =x my time is so full.not even get enough sleeping time hehe.k bye.

Choice

Everytimes I thought I have made a decision but ended up with turning back to the original point.why I can't just make my mind clear and make a perfect decision haiz.nobody can help me and teach me how to do.I cnt understand myself,I don't know what I want :( can I just turn back the clock and stop at the moment that I really feel happy?what can I do now is just focus on my study since I really have not much time to think about other things.i just want to as happy as how other people are.

520

I am so blissful :) I have a complete family,lovely parents,lengzai gorgor and cute didi (feel so guilty to write these haha :p ) I have few true friends.I care them and they care me as well.i will never leave them unless they leave me first.I will try my best to pay all my love to them :) So,I must be cheerful always,smile always,laugh always. June onwards will be getting much more busier. I am happy that I can balance my life by studying well,playing well,exercising well xD I have my own plan,own target to achieve. Thanks for loving me if you do.thanks for leaving me if u do.your leave make me become stronger and learn to look at those who care me. Happy 520 to you all :)

很好，好好的心情又被影響了。為什麼我要難過。為甚麼我要這麼痛苦。都是我的錯。從一開始就不應該去嘗試。活在過去不就好了，就算過去是多麼地不開心，現在也不會好到哪裡去。那我寧願回到過去的痛苦，我寧願繼續承受那種煎熬，都不要現在這樣。我的處境又有誰能明白。以後我會躲得遠遠的。

心灰意冷

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其實你很重要，可是每次你都很喜歡說些負氣的話，我都不知道要怎麼做好。我如果不重視你，我就不會去在乎你的感受，不會去理你，不會傷心了。你不知道，你已經比其他朋友特別了，只是。。。唉。我已經很努力地想要讓大家都好好的，可是你還是很不開心。我知道，但是我又能做些甚麼，我對你的關心還是會像以前那樣，我可以忍受你每次無緣無故的冷漠，只是我心情不好時，你還要用那種語氣那種態度很我說話，你不如乾脆不要回我算了。我不知道我每次突然做錯甚麼說錯甚麼，你就談談下忽然變了另一個樣。我沒有不珍惜你所做的一切，我一直都很感激，只是我不特別去提，但是我心裡很清楚。有時候，我真的很無奈。我也會有我的情緒好嗎。唉

Silence

I just feel like being silent sometimes.it is so suffering that I have to laugh so loudly play so crazily when I am actually in a bad mood.

一路顺风

actually i have so much things to blog about but i have insufficient of time :( since the new semester started,i am busy like hell.so....not going to blog more now.just want to tell my best friend,MR TEH CHAN SHERNG,wish you all the best there and study harder,dont disappoint me :p and i want the LALU clothes eh,haha.we will miss you,take care :)

Care

I care people easily but I don't simply care people.it's Ok that if u don't appreciate my Care,I will continue to care you too but there is someday I will not care you anymore.my heart will tell me when is the time to stop caring you.no specific person here but I just want to let you more understand about me.I am an extreme person,when I care you,you are EVERYTHING;when I don't care you,you are just NOTHING.so,when I care you,please don't give me those responds that make me feel that I am a fool.when I don't care a person,I can be very indifferent.this is how I am.

i am fine

the first time i feel like crying out after i get my result.although i was not really satisfied with my imperfect result for the last two semesters,i never felt that down like this time.unexpected result.i was shocked and followed by sadness and disappointment.i cant change the fact.i do not want to appeal for it although i quite dont understand why will i get such result.i just want to move forward.let the past be the past.at least still within the cgpa range that i want.just hope that never drop again haiz.everyone keep moving on but i am declining.i just cant accept that why i put so much effort in it yet still get such a result.i am shamed for myself.blame the menstruation pain before and on the day of the exam?it never can be an excuse.just blame that i am not good enough.after the pain i will stand up again.i will not give up easily.no matter how many times i have failed to achieve 4.0,i still will strive for it.those friends who message me really did help me to feel calm a bit :)

jiayou :DD